I’m in a dangerous place. The things that pull me back Have no merit here. I’ve lost the will Like there’s no inheritance. I’ve left myself In the darkest of rooms, With the darkest of thoughts; Rifling through my mind For a ray of light, But the only light that enters Is through the cracks Of the door I have shut. And only when my eyes have adjusted Can I see it. I wait here Among the shields that hang; Wait for a movement, An answer, Wait for the strength To bask in the light. Because the darkness feels like home. In the comfort of the emptiness, As I lay on the floor Of my walk-in closet.
Somewhere on the shores of my consciousness This conversation will play in a loop, And I will forever be at the mercy of your memory; Agonizing over everything I failed to say
For anyone wondering how the gender reveal actually went, and to see me being awkward in person (the dresses I ordered for the occasion didn’t arrive, boo), here’s the video! Pretty cool, very nerve-wracking.
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